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Kiran writes the popular blog Mystic Girl in the City.

Kiran writes the popular blog Mystic Girl in the City.

Kiran, who hasn’t used a last name since it happened, tells it like this: “At the age of 33, I died. I died into bliss. In a moment, sitting on the bed, changing shoes for a date and suddenly, I was gone.”

That was nine years ago. Today, Kiran sits—in the flesh and blood—by my side in her home’s garden. But she no longer exists.

Before I met the woman behind the popular blog Mystic Girl in the City, I thought, for sure, she must have a screw loose. But even while she speaks tendrils of esoteric reflections on the human experience, she’s as down to earth and genuine about it as a close friend.

Kiran’s “death” is what some might call “spontaneous enlightenment,” or spontaneous awakening—the life work of Eckhart Tolle, who wrote the best-selling book The Power of Now, and the dogma of the internationally acclaimed “spiritual innovator” Byron Katie.

“This is an experience many people have,” she says, “but more often it’s just a glimpse, an opening, and then it closes back up again. But mine dissolved completely.”

While the awakenings of Tolle and Katie emerged in the midst of great hardship, Kiran’s came when she was at her happiest and most functional. She was never a spiritual person. She wasn’t looking for enlightenment. Rather, it found her, sitting on her bed in Vancouver, BC, where she was working as an actress at the time. She says she just suddenly saw her body as golden light and the world as she knew it dropped away.

“When the mind dissolved for me, I just became aware of the energy,” says Kiran. “And more to the point, I was that energy.”

Though she calls it “bliss,” she also notes that it was followed by a period of profound grief and loss. “It turns out it’s the mind that’s filtering atoms to create form, the form with which we gauge our entire lives.”

Suddenly, she says, she saw the world “at code level,” and she had to learn to read the code just to get around. If it sounds a bit Matrix-y, you’re not far off.

“Had you taken any acid?” I ventured. Nope. Never.

Kiran did, however, suffer extreme, unfathomable violence and abuse in a childhood terrorized by her “stepmonster.” She thinks maybe she had this experience because that’s as far in this life she could have gone with that amount of violence in her psyche.

“So I died, I just didn’t drop the body.”

Years of therapy helped her to function, and function well. But it wasn’t until after awakening that forgiveness—and true healing—came.

“You know all of the fight, the struggle, the trouble, all of that is part of a misinterprentation of code,” she says. “When I look to the violence of my life through this lens, I can’t even point to that person, because he was so innocent, this was his programming.”

Forgiveness, she says, came in the miraculous awareness that love is so powerful and strong that nothing can break it. “And that’s a jubilation. That’s a celebration. And it’s worth knowing.”

It wasn’t until recently that Kiran began blogging, and offering healing meditations and talking sessions in the community. Her next class, “A Perfect Peace,” begins on September 23.

“I'm just some girl in some city somewhere, just like you,” she says. “‘Mystic girl’ means everybody, as opposed to me. You could read the blog and it’s your life, as much as it’s my life. And you have equal access to the same freedom and peace that I do. I’m just reading the code with very little misinterpretation.”

Pain is effort, kinks in the code, but ultimately, it’s energy too. Asking questions, and touching the contorted energy of pain with effortless energy, is at the core of her practice.

“The giant default of the whole universe is a very effortless, peaceful love,” she says. “It’s why we love to fall in love, because it’s so effortless.”

A human lifetime is peppered with karmic strands of pain, which she finds repeat themselves in different forms over the years. Identifying and reprogramming those patterns—at the code level—is something she has come to love doing for others.

“Be still,” she says. “Stillness is essential and inquiry, questioning the mind, is essential…in equal balance. Deep, passionate committed inquiry and deep passionate, committed stillness. Both are hard without some very clear guidance. And by clear, I mean an awake teacher that resonates very truly in your heart.”

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  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/2013/08/06/a_mystic_girls_life Fred Reiss

    If Mystic Girl is in the now, what’s wrong with having a full name? And she might be in bliss, but I bet her physical looks are important to her in this shallow world. As a two-time cancer survivor who knows all about living in the now, all I see is a smile in denial. Gag, cough. i say to her, wake up, you’re putting me to sleep!

  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/a_mystic_girls_life.html Fred Reiss

    If Mystic Girl is in the now, what’s wrong with having a full name? And she might be in bliss, but I bet her physical looks are important to her in this shallow world. As a two-time cancer survivor who knows all about living in the now, all I see is a smile in denial. Gag, cough. i say to her, wake up, you’re putting me to sleep!

  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/2013/08/06/a_mystic_girls_life Deepthi Rangan

    she is great!. thanks for sharing your journey Kiran smile
    very inspiring and guiding.

  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/a_mystic_girls_life.html Deepthi Rangan

    she is great!. thanks for sharing your journey Kiran smile
    very inspiring and guiding.

  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/2013/08/06/a_mystic_girls_life Karen

    I was quite surprised to read the first comment posted to this article. My response is that people often find fault with what they don’t understand. I also don’t UNDERSTAND the transformation that Kiran speaks of but I do believe in it. The work I have been doing with her (& her with me, of course) feels very powerful and healing. It is truly a gift when people that have travelled beyond one’s own vision turn around and offer help to those that live with pain. Pain comes in a million guises & can seem insurmountable—but it can be attended to and transform with love and light. I feel very fortunate as I begin to see the truth of this in my own life. Thank you, Kiran!

  • https://www.santacruz.com/news/a_mystic_girls_life.html Karen

    I was quite surprised to read the first comment posted to this article. My response is that people often find fault with what they don’t understand. I also don’t UNDERSTAND the transformation that Kiran speaks of but I do believe in it. The work I have been doing with her (& her with me, of course) feels very powerful and healing. It is truly a gift when people that have travelled beyond one’s own vision turn around and offer help to those that live with pain. Pain comes in a million guises & can seem insurmountable—but it can be attended to and transform with love and light. I feel very fortunate as I begin to see the truth of this in my own life. Thank you, Kiran!